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what the heck has been going on... 24/11/24
hey! this blog post will be my explanation for how i got doxxed and how i'm dealing/coping. i'm going to try to keep it as short as possible but i'm a yapper so... anyway!
my dog odin has been a very reactive dog since we got him, his "breeders" were extremely neglectful and he was tied up in a garage for the majority of his puppy life (i think we got him at 3 months?). when we brought him home he was covered in what seemed to be dried hot glue, paint and he STANK. long story short, he had a terrible time before we got him.

we knew he was going to need help from outside sources to help with his reactivity, out friends that have the same dog breeds as us recommended a dog trainer who i will be calling shitpoop for legal resons.
there were red flags when it came to shitpoop from the beginning but we overlooked them because he was so good with dogs like odin.
the biggest one that we should have paid attention to was that he clearly has some negative feelings towards women. for example: when he did a home visit to our previously mentioned friends, he completely ignored the woman (even though the dogs in their house belonged to her).

skipping ahead now, we drop odin off with shitpoop like 3 hours away from our home and we were told he would stay there for roughly 3 weeks to a month. the date was the 17th of september, we expected him back the 17th of october... that did not happen. we only got odin back the 8th of november. shitpoop would not give our dog back. and he knew exactly what he was doing.

each week odin spent with shitpoop cost us £300. we had planned a month. so when the week following october 17th rolled... we began lacking the funds. and this guy did not care. he showered us with promises that our dog will be so much better and that he "just isn't ready" to come home yet. bullshit. we should have just gone and picked him up, but this guy hardly answered his messages or picked up the phone to talk to us. we had one address for him, but he travelled between two places.

here is where things start to get very sus... when we left odin this guy sold us another puppy, not professional knowing we were having issues with one dog... but we were looking for a third anyway. bucket, our puppy cost us £500. all together we gave this asshole roughly £1,200. and yet he tells us we still owe him £800... for what? i have no idea. but, i believe shitpoop sold us bucket and kept odin for longer knowing our financial situation... because he wanted to keep odin. nuh uh. he's ours. he really believed that we would just give up on our boy? wrong house bud!!

well, amongst the car issues we were also having, we asked if he would drop odin off at our house, thats how he got my address (remember this for later). he never responded. it took a lot of haggling etc before we eventually got a day and got our damn dog back.

then shit hit the roof. he was harassing us constantly about paying him back, we did not have the money to pay him this stupid sum of money and he didn't understand that. we offered to pay him monthly £50 and instead of agreeing he decided to go on a social media rampage (another reason i hate social media) and doxxed us. our address, my mother's instagram. the messages she was getting from random strangers was horrible. people were calling her a tramp, skank and whore. threatening her and demanding she pay shitpoop or "or debt". random strangers.
let me just slide in that this guy did this allll on his business instagram that has 9K followers. it's a private account but 9K is 9K. thankfully nothing went beyond threatening messages (some guy legit asked him if he should come and pick up odin from us?? dude??). but all it could take is 1 person amongst the 9K to show up at our house. yes we have security cams, yes we would have called the police but at what cost? some weirdo turning up and traumatising us? my house consists of myself, my mom and my minor sister. i suffer with adhd, anxiety and ptsd as is. my sister suffers with autism and epilepsy and does have seizures when in extreme stress. i am thankful nothing happened. but jesus christ it could have turned out so fucking horribly.

now, after the panic had worn off, we did contact the police and because it was (to them) not an emergency, they didn't come... in fact, they still haven't come to see us or take a statement. oh, and doxxing isn't illegal in the UK. go figure!
shitpoop has threatened us with legal action (opening a civil case) but we are yet to hear from that. and i doubt he will do anything because we have all the screenshots of his harrassment and doxxing. oh, and his refusal of the £50.
this guy is so shady! we've learnt that he does drugs regularly (the super bad kind) and owns a fucking lion in egypt?? man.

i haven't heard from him since he threatened us with legal action. i am begging it happens. i want to see that mans face when a judge tells him to fuck off. but who knows.
it sucked overall. this isn't how you conduct business at all. he took advantage of us and then tried to spin the story.

we've heard that there have been many of his followers that are against him for what he did, stating that we (or my mother) haven't responded at all (and we never will). many berated him for airing out dirty laundry in public and began a smear campaign. there are good people in the world.

is it over? i don't know. but for now, i am calm and i am manifesting the worst karma for this piece of human scum.

well!! that's all i really have to say! until next time, and with a better update! signing off! jay



03/11/24
I'M JUST A KID AND LIFE IS A NIGHTMARE!! i recently just got over a big sick. and i am still in pain so there's that!! i feel a lot better which is a good thing, my head still feels horrid. uh halloween happened and i slept through it all cause...i was sick. last night however, i had this random burst of energy and made a whole shrine so again, that's something. i have noticed i suck at writing in journals, which is why i never stuck to one as a kid, but i loved notebooks. also, october fucking sucked ass for me. i hope november is better and i'm hopinh for a good festive season come december cause i love christmas!!! but yeah.
signing off! jay



25/10/24
hello i am nursing a cold and i am very very very very miserable!!! i have been filling up my time by sleeping, eating and watching the spanish princess, and now the tudors because i am a WHORE for the tudor era. idk why. i think i could have fixed henry (BIG JOKE PLS). i have nothing else to say i am sorry. one day i will be able to right something big and sexy here instead of complaints
signing off! jay


16/10/24
ignore like everything past this entry, i just filled it with really super old shit to make this look decent lmao!! i have neglected my site for months on end until now, i am revamping everything here so some links are a) old af and b) not working. bear with me during this time and stick around for more shit idk!!! i am trying!
signing off! jay

09/04/24
guess who's back? back again? i am back! tell a friend! hiiii where to begin... oh! i have done a few more pages on here which i am happy with.. a vampire diaries shrine and a little game room thingie! epic win!! honestly still trying to figure out what else i'd like to do but i am chilling for now~ my younger sister is currently in hospital getting braces... yes, in hospital or braces. really it's because she needs to be sedated or she freaks out haha... oh and four teeth removed so i think it's for the best. but i'm lowkey kinda jealous! on one hand, i hate the dentist please sedate me whenever i need to get something done, thank you! and on another hand; my teeth have always been perfectly straight with zero issues (aside from cavities of well) so i never needed braces but allll my friends had them and i thought they looked so cute sigh... what i wouldn't give to be natrually ginger and had braces... maybe in another life! also jealous of americans rn, so not fair that england never sees eclipses because it's always waaaay too cloudly over here so even if there was an eclipse directly over us, we wouldn't notice anthing. i can't remember the last time i saw stars in the sky because it's so bloody cloudy!!!!!!! i hate it. anyway that's enough complaining from me! signing off! jay
06/04/24
hellooooooo!!! it's meeeee back again with a new layout for my little blog / journal update thing! finally figured out how to work status cafe too yay!! i recently (as most people know) updated my index layout too and i am so in love with it! for so long i wanted something super oldweb, y2k, all over the place and messy and i finally achived it! i am reworking all my sites to have a more nostalgic look and feel, i am pretty happy with this site, but i am always adding more and reworking things! do you like my little misa on top? i think she's cute and i love these adorable ichigo (tokyo mew mew) gifs and icons! i am just becoming so much more confident and happy with neocities and all my neighbours are so lovely, i love interacting with you all so much! on my first website, i was angery and frustrated and didn't interact with anyone because of it... but i have changed and i am so excited for the future of this site! will keep this updated (hopefully) and will try to keep my status cafe updated too!! below are old enteries! signing off! jay
04/03/24
it's monday and everyone hates mondays. my dog, mishka is currently as i am typing this, in surgery. she is getting spayed. she needs this because our other dog is a male and he is a horny asshole. and although puppies would be cute, we don't have the financial means to take care of anymore pets, not trusting anyone to take care of the puppies: their breed is belgian malinois who are very demanding dogs and they are a common breed in shelters. we don't want to add to that. and of course, our little mishka is a very petite fragile girl. she was just born that way, vets have told us she wouldn't handle having puppies.

cats are easier when it comes to spaying and such, but dogs are interesting... they don't do well under anaesthesia. and as we suspected, mishka's heart stopped. don't worry!! she is good now, it is very common for dogs for their hearts to stop or to stop breathing. everything is okay and her vets are amazing. but it is still not a phone call you want to get.
so i'm just trying to relax, mess around with html and chill. that's all. i will keep everyone updates on how mishka is doing soon! edit april 6th: mishka is fine and doing well but still recovering!

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